This week for the Thursday Blog Project I asked the group to write about: Write about something no one would ever guess about you.
The topic was inspired by a dinner I attended last weekend and a few other interactions I've had over the past weeks/months. It all started when I signed up for a program for Young Jewish Professionals that meets once a week over the course of 8 weeks.
The first week, I showed up to the first meeting only knowing one person. To say I was uncomfortable is an understatement. Despite this fact, I put on a smile and pushed myself (as I always do) to socialize with the others while the shy kid inside of me wanted to immediately turn around and go home. Sigh... Have I ever mentioned how much I hate large groups like this and in a bar nonetheless?
After our group meeting we went to a bar where the other four/five groups where.
If not, I do. So much so that I grabbed a glass of ice water and found my friend. My poor friend. I spent the remainder of the evening glued to her. She encouraged me to talk to my fellow group members, but I had nothing to say. The same thing pretty much happened during week two. By week three I was warming up to everyone, but was throw a curve ball. We had a mass trivia night at a bar so we weren't going to be meeting in our smaller groups first. CRAP MONKEY! However, I was getting more comfortable and was more social without feeling as awkward.
By the fourth week I could tell I was staring to make friends. When we went to the bar I was definitely more comfortable and wasn't relying on my friend to keep me "safe." However, it was week five that really brought it all together. I attribute the game "Cards Against Humanity" for this. To really play this game you have to truly take down any type of filter you have and just be yourself. So I was.
I mention all this because a lot of people think I'm outgoing and have no problem with social situations and/or lack self confidence. In reality, it's a matter of being shy and having to push myself past those feelings. Sometimes that isn't a problem; other times it's a HUGE obstacle.
Thankfully, more often than not it's not a problem - and I thankful for my ability to overcome my shyness, however I think it's important to remember that I am this way so I never let it catch me off guard. Most of all, I think it's important for others to know so they can truly know me.
Now that I've talked about something people wouldn't guess about me, please take a moment to see what my fellow bloggers have to say on the topic:
Merryland Girl (Melissa)
Darwin Shrugged (Denise)